After the Fall

Isolation wraps its insistent tentacles

tighter, whispering messages of 

deception

Luring, grating, fiendishly beckoning

I follow – blindly stumbling

until the mirage vanishes

Left in an eerie cave of 

disappointment

Pain flashes, sadness looms

Connections weakened and tried

Tears don’t come easily

Trapped behind the wall of 

self-discipline, punishment, gloom

When the dam breaks, relief hits

words take the place of heavy silence

Tiny gestures, wound up with string

Refinement is discovered 

in the depths

This post is part of the Five Minute Friday writing challenge. Each week I join with this talented group of writers, free writing for five minutes in accordance with a prompt. Today’s prompt is ‘refine’. 

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In the Midst…

It’s messy in the middle. Toys strewn, boxes scattered of  their innards, doors opening then easing shut. I take a breath, letting it out slowly. … I look down at my ever expanding middle – watching the tiny shark fin track its way beneath the surface.  I take a breath, […]

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#365mumtastic

I’m not sure if I’m meant to admit this or not, but I’m not quite sure how to use Instagram. I’ve shared random photos over the past year, but haven’t really got the hang of hashtags or followers and I feel very much like a novice every time I post. Then […]

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My Top Ten Books of 2016

There’s something magical about books. They have the power to take you to a different place, another world entirely. I’ve visited countries, scenes and worlds that I would never have otherwise stepped foot into, discovered concepts that have revolutionised the way I see myself and others and become inspired to […]

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The Veiled Symphony

There is an undergirding hum of throbbing energy, the tick  of a striding clock. Goosebumps rise on unsuspecting arms as the wind brings an imperceptible  shift. … This breath that I barely acknowledge the pumping of warmth through my veins The ping of human interactions beg for attention away from […]

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Succumbing

A burst of energy I seize it, both hands clasping, wishing for a hint of my former shadow –  energy, vitality, creativity I push past the fade wanting to reclaim the version of myself that satisfies me Not the hamstrung, snuffed out rest-seeking missile The crystal glass eludes me I […]

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Condiments

I can breathe again Fill my lungs with hope and  gaze forward beyond the next queasy moment Bend down to sort toys into  boxes, think about something other than my next desperate meal See altercations without  expelling a sigh of  ‘seriously’ Embrace the giving of  lectures, cuddles, guidance Savour the aroma […]

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A Common Life

So much of my life right now involves moments of routine, repetition and the mundane. Wake up, serve breakfast, get kids dressed, attend appointments/drop offs, make lunch, set up kids in rest time, make dinner, bathtime, bedtime. Often, you would be forgiven for mistaking days that merge into one – […]

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What If I Stumble?

Watching the three tumbling bodies wrestle on the rug last night, it struck me: “They will never be this little again…” and then the follow up thought: “Thank goodness”. It had been a rough afternoon of tantrums and parenting battles, arguments and rages. What had started off as special experiences […]

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The Sphere

I only have these eyes  from which to see the world I only have these ears  to witness beauty unfurl These fingers type and try to make  a picture of what I take in This breath I can use to sigh  in regret or savour the satin  wonder of Ivy’s […]

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